Okay, as I go forth into the weekend I will leave you all with something a bit more mild tasting. I've really tossed up my freak flag this week. Thank you all for bearing with me. It felt awesome letting that all out. Oh, and welcome to all my new fans from the Men's Health forum. You guys rock my world! After I made it through the initial hazing, I found a nice nest to hang out in. You guys can be brutal!
So, I'm watching "Pretty Women" last night for the 637th time. Cable never gets tired of showing it, I never get tired of watching it. I still get upset when they don't let her shop and I still cry at the end. The modern day fairy tale with a prostitute thrown in. It's like crack for women under 35. We have to watch it even though we know that there is no truth to it. We always hope that when Julia says "I want the fairy tale," Richard Gere will suddenly drop down on one knee and propose.
It got me thinking, could I ever do that? Could I ever have sex for money?
When the movie was over I decided twist up my brain in more knots. I found "Cathouse" in the On Demand menu and clicked it on. That's the reality show based in the "Moonlight Bunny Ranch" in Nevada. Basically, a whorehouse. I saw half the men that these girls were hooking up with and it have me the heebie jeebies. EWW!!
Apparently that would not be the place for me and I'm still having full body shivers every time I think about it.
I've already established the fact that I don't think I could ever be in porn. I don't know if it's the camera, the monstrous packages or just the overall ickiness of the act.
So, I tried another angle - call girl. Could I become one of those glamorous call girls that get to pick the men they see, go out to fancy dinners, wear designer clothes and take trips all over the world? Could I be the next Heidi Fleiss?
I've never had sex with someone that I wasn't attracted to or liked in some way or another. Even wearing the haziest of beer goggles, I still managed to escape the notorious "coyote ugly". Could I hook up with someone that was a mystery to me? Honestly, I don't know.
Me....the most outspoken, open minded, excepting person there is.....I just can't come up with an answer. I don't know if I've finally started judging myself or if I'm too much of a control freak. But, I can honestly say I can't come up with a straight answer of yes or no.
This is going to be a long day. I hate loose ends!